Wednesday, August 27, 2008


As we're getting closer (really close!) to leaving - besides being stressed out and distracted by the hundred and one details of packing, cleaning the house, making arrangements for N, getting things ready for Tessa - I'm more and more conscious of how big this all is.

For all of us.

For our Tessa who'll soon be leaving the only home she's ever known and the caregivers who've been her mothers for so long.  She'll be leaving behind a brother she never had a chance to meet and a mother she hasn't seen since she was 4 days old.  Leaving family to find family.  For N who knows he's getting a little sister but doesn't, I think, really know.  He's moving from being an adored only child - the sole apple of his parent's eyes - to a big brother who will have to learn to share his parent's time and attention.  For us as parents welcoming another child.  Changing from our little familiar family of 3 to a newer version, a more full and wonderful version of 4. 

Big overwhelming changes all around.  But even though I'm this tangled web of emotions these days - full of joy, apprehension, impatience to hold my daughter, sorrow for her birth family - I think I'm ready for the sheer and glorious bigness of it all.  Ready for all the changes - big, small, and in-between.

3 days and counting.


Heather said...

What a beautiful post! Simply beautiful.

Kristy -Mom to 4 and soon to be more! said...

I am sooooo with you! Look forward to meeting you in Addis! :-)
Are you flying on ET air?